My Psalm 23

I recently began reading Idelette's blog. A few days ago she suggested an exercise in writing "Your own Psalm 23". I waited a few days with the first question "Who is God in relationship to you" rolling around my brain... the only thing that came to me was that He was my intended or my betrothed. This came with a mental image of a Jane Austen-ish arranged marriage to a very slightly older, perfect gentleman type - the romance novel kind of image of the man who has always loved me, and is waiting patiently for me to grow up and realize fully how much I love him as well.

I am not sure why this is the image that I see. I have been a Christian for 25 years. I was one of those people in college who actually prayed to recieve Christ when an acquaintance shared the 4 Spiritual Laws booklet with me (have you ever actually met someone who would admit that?) - I wanted Christ on the throne of my heart, even if the booklet did seem cheesy... I have been involved with churches, to greater and lesser degrees, ever since. So this image does not necessarily make sense to me - except that questioning many of my worldview assumptions is where I am at, and this is the truth that I know, right now.

Thank you, Idelette, for suggesting this exercise.

My Psalm 23

The Lord is my intended, my betrothed,
I know that He will wait for me.

He encourages me in my search
To know truth, and to be true.

He shines light in the darkness that has clouded my vision,
He holds my hand when I am weak.

While the risk that my questions will lead me astray
Scares the hell out of me at times,
Your Love and Grace show me that no question is too big.

You shower me with gifts of Love
While allowing me room to grow and change.
I feel honored.

Though searching and learning characterize my life for now,
I know my future will always be with my beloved.